A while back I talked about destructive independence, where you pretend things are great when they're not, which robs people around you of the opportunity to support you when you need it.

So here's where I try to practice what my characters preach, and say that I'm going to be distracted and scattered for the next few weeksuntil I find out when they're scheduling my husband's surgery. Mostly I am concentrating on finding extra money for babysitting and such... or even finding a babysitter, since my usual babysitter is having family problems of her own and isn't available.

I appreciate deeply your patience, since I'm sure I'll be missing steps here and there until things settle down. You all have been really wonderful; I only hope I give you as much as you give me!


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When I did my brush donation drive, I promised that everyone who donated toward the brushes (or bought me one from my Dick Blick Wish List) would get a postcard of the very first picture I painted with them. I started "Willow" once I received them and while I haven't had the chance to finish it, Willow is definitely the first thing I painted with those brushes, and I am doggedly determined it will be the promised postcard picture.

Which means every single painting I've done since then, I've used the old brushes. The Aphorisms cover. Geles. Thirukedi. Collapse. And now I'm about to start Sunny Days... with the old brushes.

I keep telling myself this is ridiculous because Willow was the first piece I touched those brushes to, so technically even if I use the brushes on other pieces that I finish first, it's still the first piece. But I can't... bring... myself to do it.

Can someone get back to me on whether breaking alignment long enough to do something slightly out-of-character would cause me to suffer an XP penalty?


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